It has been a while. Sorry about that. Life happens when you least expect it. I moved 857 miles to chase a dream. My decision was right but again, life happens. Now I find myself looking at a world of options. I am about as loyal as they come although the past 20 months may not look that way.
Now I find myself facing uncertainty and I am biting my lip a lot. That’s not the end of the world, actually I’m kinda used to that part. But what do you say when they ask you to tackle the uncertain in a rickety dingy?
Lately I have felt the absolute drive to preserve the institution in which I have invested myself for the greater good. As such I have thrown myself into it. I don’t think I could care less about the overall parent but I love the local folks. The leadership is solid and transparent. When people devote their lives to something that definitely grabs my attention and commands respect.
Is there safety in numbers? That question becomes infinitely more complicated when those numbers are dwindling. You can only remove a quarter so many times until you are left with virtually nothing. First you remove the fat. Then you try to lean up the meat if you can but when you reach bone you should stop chopping.
Sometimes you are standing at a precipice and it feels like a reckoning. Other times you find yourself at a crossroads. First there are 2 roads. Then there are 4, 6, 8, and so on. The hardest part is remaining strong in mind. Presence and clarity are the wings you have to rely on. And under no circumstances can you be impulsive.
Now it is time to be mindful. Life wants you to hurry and be impulsive. As far as the living world goes, you are just as useful as compost as a sentient being. Only you can make the right decision. You won’t know what it is. So do the best you can. And Wang Chung.
Beta Testing Adulthood 